Happy Halloween

Hope everyone has a fun and safe Halloween... We have had an eventful day filled with lots of fun for the kids. The kids had their Halloween party at school and then tonight we had our church Halloween party, the kids had a blast, Resiana was so excited even though she had no idea what all of this was about, all she kept saying all day was is this Halloween day, I guess my best explanation for Halloween is just that you get to dress up and get candy since It really has no meaning otherwise, anyways it was truly a fun day and night for the kids. Caden loves dressing up and would of wore any costume, Carter on the other hand has give me a fit about dressing up since he was three years old, he thinks its dumb but I made him as usual but I did let him take it off after a few pictures, anyways life is wonderful even though it is a circus around here sometimes, and getting everything together for four kids sometimes gets a little crazy, for instance tonight before going to the party we were all getting things together to take to the party, the food, costumes, candy etc, and in the chaos Crimsyn's bottle got warmed and put away to take with us, after getting to the party and unloading everything Crimsyn is ready for his bottle, but the bottle is nowhere to be found, we searched high and low but no bottle, so Michael had to go home and get him another bottle but no one knows where in the world the bottle went, at the end of the night when we were passing out the candy to the kids, in the bottom of the basket , under all the candy was the bottle...Who knows??? We are one happy family, a little crazy sometime but nevertheless Happy!!! Happy Halloween Everyone!!

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Reflecting

The last few days I have been thinking about the way our lives have been blessed and how much God has given us this year, the two children he has added to our home and the love and joy they have brought, healing Crimsyn after bringing him home just in time. Wow we have had an amazing year, with many ups and downs, laughter and tears. God has taught us so much through our children all of them, but in most recent times through Crimsyn and Resiana. I never really understood the exact meaning of trusting the Lord and I know it can be said for many things "we need to trust the Lord" but through this experience I think I found out a little of what trusting the Lord was about. I remember a few days before we got the call to come back and get our baby, I was so distraught and felt part of myself was questioning everything why why why???
I did not want to be that way but I was struggling knowing what precious little Crimsyns life would be like. One day I was praying and I told the Lord he was worthy of the praise no matter what and that I would do my best to be the best even though I did not understand and I think I realized it was not for me to understand at the time, no my hurt did not go away not even in the least but he spoke peace to my soul, in a way only he could, the comforting hand of our dear Saviour...Today I am so thankful he has lifted that burden and brought so much joy to us with the GIFT of baby Crimsyn, for I know he belongs to God and we have been allowed to love and cherish him. The love I have for my childrens birth family is so great, to be given the chance to love and be loved by my children is my dream come true and the joy our children brings is the most fullfilling experience I have ever had, being a Mother is simply amazing, and I thank God daily, I have alot to learn and I need wisdom but the challenges that come along with motherhood cannot even be compared to the joys of motherhood.

As you all know Crimsyn fell very ill shortly after he came to be with us , as we were in the hospital with him it hit us of how God brought him home to us just in time, in time for him to get medical help and to have such precious people praying for him, while we were in the hospital the Lord sent him so much help, help that could of only came from him, in ways that no amount of medicine could of done..He truly is a miracle...

Our children our the happiest little kids in the world, Caden came in the living room one day while I was holding Crimsyn and said "Mama we dont have to cry anymore" they love him so much all of them but his big brother Carter is soo crazy about him and loves tending to him, he will sit forever and hold him if we let him, the little ones love him to but would rather be playing with each other, they are still best buds ( I could count on my one hand in the past six months how many times they have argued) they love each other so much and want to be together all the time, its precious.

Resiana is doing so good in school, her teacher said she is a social butterfly and everyone wants to be her friend. She still is the most grateful child you have ever seen, she will recount things that happened in the "park" from time to time and it is simply gut wrenching, I dont think she realizes how disturbing it really is, that was just her life for nearly five years. She is so normal though as if she has always been here and been our child, she is just our little girl..We are thankful beyond measure!!!

Blessings

Thank you Lord for your Blessings on our Family!!!!

We are so thankful for baby Crimsyn.....We are so thankful that God has allowed us to be parents, I remember asking God to let me be a mother however he seen fit, that if there was a child out there that he would allow us to have that I would do my best to teach him the ways of the Lord to the very best of my ability, sometime I feel so unworthy to be the mother of these four wonderful children but I look back to that prayer I so diligently prayed for six and a half years, and I know without a doubt that God choose me and Michael and Carter, Caden, Resiana, and Crimsyn to be a family, and our children know that God put us together in a different way than most families but that they are special and loved beyond measure....When Carter was around two years old we began to talk about him being adopted and what that meant and we would tell him the story of how he came to be ours and he loved to hear me tell him about it and when it was nap time he would want to hear it again and again and through the years he understood more and more and seems very content in knowing that God had a plan for all of us... When you ask my children where they were born they usually say " In My Mama's Heart"

and that is exactly how I feel, they are the children of my heart, the love of their father and my life , we are so very thankful and could never praise God enough...



Crimsyn is doing wonderful!!!!! The kids are crazy about him, always wanting to help feed him or change him...They think he is the best thing in the world and so do we, I do not think he has been laid down more than three or four times in these past five days, we cannot get enough of him...We just want to shout it from the rooftops CRIMSYN IS HOME!!!!!!THANK YOU LORD!!!

The Journey

Well everyone we are so happy words cannot express......

The darkest hour is before the dawn.. The storm came and yes now we have "Our Rainbow"

Last week seemed to be the hardest week of our lives, I had never seen my strong unemotional husband so broken, and needless to say I am always emotional but the feelings I have experienced the last few weeks were beyond emotions that I understood, I felt myself slipping away and I did not want that, I wanted to be a good mother to the three children that were with me and to be a good servant to the Lord but I felt myself slipping into a state of mind that I could not hardly pull out of...Thursday of last week was our church night and Michael told me he just didnt know if he could do it, go and pretend things were ok, he had not been sleeping at night and it seemed he had the weight of the world on his shoulders,and to try and get up before a congergation of people and encourage them seemed impossible (but let me tell you the Lord helped him everytime) and he was there everytime....



Friday night we had a Gospel Singing and I was not even sure I would feel up to attending but I knew going was the right thing..During intermission Michael came up to me and asked me to come outside and said he recieved a phone call from the adoption co-ordinator and that the birthmother had contacted her and told her she wanted us to come and get the baby, just that simple... We were so excited but was still guarded.. We could not hardly sleep friday night due to the excitment but was still a little unsure, Saturday evening the birthmother called me herself and told me that she wanted us to have the baby more than anything.....


We arrived in Hawaii at 10pm and went straight to the co-ordiantors house and got the baby and the birthmother asked to stay the night with us, we brought her back to our hotel and spent the night and day with her, it was bitter sweet but wonderful...The birthmother told me once more of how God had brought us together.....Praise The Lord.....THIS IS OUR JOURNEY!!!!!!

Crimsyn is Home!!!!!! Praise the Lord

Crimsyn is home as of last night fixing to go surprise the church just like we surprised our family last night, details and photos later!!!!

Glory to God!!!!!!!

Thankful

Well I just read everyones thankful list and mine sounds pretty close to everyone else but I thought I would continue the cycle and tell you all a little of what I am so thankful for

I am thankful most of all that out of this big world The Lord choose me to be his servant...

I am thankful for my wonderful husband who is my hero, my best friend, my sounding board, my inspiration...

I am thankful for our "Journey" even when the days looked dark we know this is our jourey,
words cannot describe how thankful I am for the joy my children brings, the void they have filled in my life, the comfort they bring...

I am thankful for my Mother and Father who raised me to fear the Lord and put him first, and that being a Mother was the best thing in the world, and to know they love me unconditonaly...

I am thankful for the influence my Grandmothers had and still have in my life, and that I can truly say that Granny is one of my best friends and I love spending time with her...

I am thankful for my brothers, still trying to protect me.... I am thankful for my sister who makes me laugh and brightens my day..

I am thankful for my dear friends who are always there no matter what and know how to cheer me up..

I am thankful for my wonderful in-laws that I consider my second parents, and to know they love me like their own...

I am thankful for all my "Mama Crystal" babies who have brought so much joy to my life even though some of them are grown, they make my life more wonderful!!

I am thankful for my church family who suffers when we suffer and rejoices when we rejoyce...

I am thankful for my health, that the Lord has restored it unto me, and allows me to do the things I need to and more..

I am thankful for all the little things that are not so little...

I am thankful that my little Girl will have her first Christmas...

I am thankful for life !!!!! AND I Am so Thankful he brought our precious baby home!!!